I know I have not been myself the last few weeks, so I figured it was time to stop hating everything and say I am sorry for who I been. Self esteem and confidence has seem
to been at a ultimate low yeah I been a hermit. I watched the I campus earlier to catch up on church, have not attend since my dad passed. Grieving process has 5 stages, I wish I knew which one I was on but honestly I felt all of them the last few weeks as i have been mad, frustrated and even scared. I was suppose to attend a wedding today with a friend but I felt such ashamed and depressed I didn't wanna socialize with anyone. I have no control over my dad passing, so I been trying to control everything else a little tighter and we can say that's never a effective solution. Everyday the past couple weeks have been work and then come home and sleep. I have to get back to my grind and not allow the enemy to keep me isolated. Gods plan is huge but my faith and trust is needed. I am trying my hardest to break through this funk, I will admit it's something I can't describe. Losing my dad is the hardest pain I ever felt and I didn't know it would effect me this much but I do promise I am returning better then ever. I Live my life with a purpose and understand my journey is not like anyone else's. God Bless!!!