Part of the reason none the previous relationships ever worked because of what it triggers. Neither of two girls I dated before caused problems, they formed years prior. I use to say I need to be single but never knew why, I realize why now. The sexual abuse suffered as a child affects the present by destroying my self worth In when it comes to being intimate. The biggest effect that is intimacy has on
me is it triggers an eating disorder that was formed years ago as well, that is also linked to being molested as a child. So often I am tempted and crave companionship but am learning it’s not worth the sacrifice of mental health.