That sunrise looks so beautiful, I took it just over a week ago. Run run run I tell my self or even write and write and it will subside. Your probably asking what and simply has been depression that has lead to old eating disorder tendencies. I thought that story ended but more like a chapter to my story. The last 8 weeks have been exetremely taxing on my own mental health from losing my dad to having my mom not say much or show much support during this grieving process, and to add on to it my first love ex girlfriend appeared by myside as I held my dad for the last time on may 10th. The fight has been tuff and even seems to be tuffer as I get farther away from the day he left to go see God. What's next, I ask myself thinking I need a big change or maybe a vacation. I quit using drugs 7 years ago and that time don't compare to losing you. I guess I never felt so alone But like Ben said I need to lean in to Jesus.