This post does contain explicit language and disturbing references. The fight for your sexuality is something I know all to well. I link homosexuality to two things a parent being absent from a child’s life and childhood sexual abuse. When I have done research and case studies I came across the gender of the parent missing is commonly the gender the child does not engage with intment relationships. I was sexually abuse as a child I was penteated and forced to give oral sex for over a years time. I will say this I remember being at the store as kid as asking myself do I like boys or girls, crazy to think about now. Sexually I was confused I didn’t understand the bodies natural reaction from stimulation. I am sure if I didn’t grow up even as a young kid dreaming of being a dad, husband or a great athlete I would of had a great chance to be homosexual. I fought for my dreams and my sexuality through some of the tuffest adversity. My early 20’s arrived and the mask was well formed with muscles and tattoos. I found my self trying to buy love through what I had and this even meant selling my body to obtain money. With money I thought the woman of my dreams would come but not realizing those were major thinking errors. I look back with no shame, I stand still with pride knowing I will fight for my Dreams until they become my today.