You ever asked why? Like why God is this happening and why now!!! God moves us according as he sees fit, not as we desire. Over the past week I have felt things I never felt, questioning my choices in so many ways. There is a reason behind the season, the smile on my face is so bright because my God is so great. God will say 🛑, when we don’t follow he 🛑 us to gain perspective of the vision he has for us. I am so grateful for everything my close friends especially, my friends list is not long but man it is so 💪🏻. Yeah, I have a big initiative with a humongous WHY behind it and that my friends makes my life great. Simply I wanna protect the babies from the bs in the world, be the voice that articulates hope on behalf of those who
are like me and be the reason somebody never gives up. The Voice can be filled with passion, intensity but know the voice is more then that it’s the voice of a little boy still inside of me.
It’s more then being sad it’s a mental illness that can have you crying for help. Let’s really break it down for what it is. You ready? De comes from deficit as in a loss. Press comes from resistance or force against and Ion represents inward as in deficit pressing inward. Depression can deadly and yes I mean deadly! Depression can look like substance abuse, obesity and isolation.
Have you ever noticed in a lot of obesity cases often found is mental health and substance abuse issues. Obesity a sign of hurt and unsolved internal turmoil. After years later of kicking my drug issues, I still struggled severely with an eating disorder (bulimia). The spring of 2016 I discovered running and never looked back. Whenever the cravings would come usually most evenings about 7pm I would go run for at least 2 miles and after the run not only would I feel filled with optimism but the cravings subsided. I truly believe fitness and can change ones wellbeing.
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Even just one mile can change the way your day goes it’s crazy how your own efforts can change not only you physical but more importantly your mental health. After drug addiction I struggled with bulimia and binge eating for years, cravings would amplify at night and usually would lead to a binge or just a serious breakdown. I remember back in the spring of 16 I started running a couple miles each evening take photos as I freed myself from the cravings. I have not looked back and found my way to cope with the adverse childhood trauma I experienced.
Run it’s simple run for your life and never look back at the past. I have been talking about trauma for the last 3 years sharing parts of my story bringing light to where risky behaviors come from. Off work with an injury has me questioning my success and work ethic. Forgot all that I been molested, sold my body for money, cut my face as a teenager to beg for help.. I just wanna run and forget being the best runner I just wanna be out there dancing with demons.
You see the image and I can only assume the reaction you made, whatever Jeremy yeah sure. With age I have matured and with maturity comes a clearer perception. Lust is common lust is also convince most of all lust is selfish even if it’s mutual. Old soul in a modern society can bring frustration especially when you feel like your the only one. In times of isolation sex is never what comes to mind, but what does is seeing the glance of your eyes or holding your hand. Love is not physical it’s a feeling that makes you feel okay with what life is or is not.
who are your people, all people nah, your people are those who have the same values and beliefs. Sometimes I get nervous around people who I have nothing in common with for example I don’t drink or really like bars so in that arena I find my nerves a little more tense. Nothing wrong for being the authentic you I tell myself when i feel out of place. Let me just say this there is nothing wrong with having differnt values and interests then others it’s how our Heavenly Father created us. Authenticity is being you and being sincerely happy with the person you glance at in the mirror. I
What a beautiful evening feels great to enjoy this weather. One week away and the next chapter starts, has the energy jubilant. What’s next I know one thing is the sheriffs office, I still can not believe this is really happening. Another half marathon in a few weeks and then it’s preparation for a 50 miler.. Yes I really just said that 50 big ones 😊. It’s time to take the governor off and push myself to new heights....
The detox from social from Facebook and Snapchat. I however will keep IG for sharing my running journey and love of fitness. I was off FB for 2 months not realizing how much better I felt. My anxiety has increased with the use of FB lately to the point I am waking up wanting to throw up. FB has triggered other behaviors comparison, lust and having a higher rate of irritability. I am changing jobs and quite honestly it’s terrifying walking away from home to grow by choice has not helped the emotional rollercoaster. I am moving on changing my number cleaning out my contacts and am focusing on creating a new life. Fofrich that’s the name I take pride in, it starts with me and I wanna get in.
Nothing is better then the love of pets. Cute little noses and squinting eyes are absolutely adorable at all times even when messes are made. The companionship pets offer is second to none, pure unconditional love! If ever in my future I have a big yard I will fill it with doggies and kitties. 😊