Maybe social media is great for marketing and personal branding but sometimes disconnection is needed to reconnect. Looking forward to experiencing more fun stuff and living life more.
Nothing special I never will be, but will always be me. I am so content being single and being a person who creates change and gives hope through my story. I need nothing fancy just to know I gave life my everything! Compliments have been received about my work,makes tears come out my eyes , I know my dad and Buschia are in heaven saying “that’s my boy” and that’s all I could ever want. Single yeah I been that and most likely will stay that because what I need has nothing to do with intimacy and everything to do with appreciation. I am just kid from north Toledo who overcame everything I was labeled..
Me I am nothing special some people appreciate me for who i am others tell me what’s wrong with me at end of the day that’s a tuff pill to swallow. I don’t know about you but what I wanna be loved by everyone, yeah I know that’s inpossiable but my heart still desires it. I wish I could name alll the things I suck at but that would take forever but I will tell you this I am genuine and my heart is pure. Just like you I wanna be loved how I approach it might be different then you buy that does not make either of us wrong. I hate conflict but yet I stand for something bigger then myself, sometimes I say I wish I was normal worked at job that I was not so invested into and played video games all day. Being me is great at times and challenging at others no matter what you might think I just wanna be the best me.
So often I have allowed people to come and go in my life and allow them to return without any questions. I tell myself with everything, if you do what you always done you will get what you always got. Their is a greater reason why they don’t stay cause God has a special one woman in mind for me. I am just truly glad I am in this place of growth to allow me to keep evolving as a man.
Not the best run this afternoon I had trouble getting to that happy place but still reeked therapeutic benefits. I am so excited to. be in this place ready to advance my life and yeatsterday I did live video that I almost certain will help mypersonnel development immensely. My goal this week is to be humble and respect everyone.
Maybe going over my moms was a trigger for this empty feeling I have now. Alone so often you hear that but so often the isolation can eat at soul. I really wanna do stuff but have nothing to do or nothing to do with I wanna do it with. I wanna meet a good woman who wants to fun shit that I actually like. I don’t know I guess I need to lace up and get some more miles in!!
Moving forward to make a real change community mental health we have to work with families not individuals everything should be intertwined. Parent child and everybody else in the household should specifically work with a therapist and case manager to service that whole house. So often we see children acting out at school, children’s behaviors represent their home no matter what a parent may say, we need to help create safer homes so our behavior interventions get great results, no intervention will work consistently if the home is inconsistent. You may wonder how is that approach possible I think there’s a back door solution in poverty areas we help make families life a little easier we help we help create a foundation in the home.Employment,budgetingand other respurces to make life that much easier on the parents so often the single parent. You don’t approach a parent if they have mental health issues you approach a parent that you’re trying to make their life a lot easier. You do that people open up and people see that are not there to take but to give.
Inner peace has arrived or maybe I arrived! The feeling of maturity is an amazing feeling, to not need anything and have contentment speaks volumes of the man I become. Yesterday I sold my car and I feel so free 18k in debt gone and in my heart I know it was the greatest decision I made. Dad I love you and I am keeping my promise to make you proud!!!!!
Today was a day full of food, I didn't use my fitnesspal app after 2pm cause it world of been to hard to keep track lol. I went to the Lawson's were they welcomed me as their own. So excited about this next phase of maturity, tomorrow I will be selling my car and be car payment free!! Having a nice gives me something but I wanna experience life by traveling and doing more of what I love.
Anxiety seems to be something that has a hold on me, I wanna go to bed but so many thoughts are running through my mind. Thoughts of being not liked or loved by people almost as if I was tarnished as old metal. will life always be a struggle or am i coming closer to my walk, wish I had the answer but I know only he does. Looking for guidance from god so I can walk in his light. I am so committed to do things his way because i tried my way long enough. The key to happiness is with God nothing hear on this earth can bring true happiness fulfillment like he can..