Never been the cool kid always been a misfit.. white kid in a black neighborhood just trying to fit in always been on the outside looking in, those experiences of childhood all the way to modern day have taught me many things. Most of all I learned being cool is being vulnerable and being fake is never cool. I use to have parties so I could make the scene perfect like a movie but now I realize prefect only occurs in movies. Leave me with nothing drugs would never be an option all due to the fact I never got clean using a program I got clean because I wanted to create a life that most children dream of. I’m not on this earth to contribute to symptom monitoring, I am however going to address root causes of bigger problems, yeah I know not a lot of money in it but it’s real. I sold my soul trying to fit in and find my voice, now I talk about real news with my real voice and am loved more then ever. I made it fuck what you think, I made this it’s not much to some but it’s everything to me. Grateful for the life given! I rather have less and be impeccable, then live a lie.
The higher the ACE score translates to less opportunity to live a productive life. Experiencing more adverse childhood experiences leaves a child more acceptable to having cognitive delays, education gaps and neurological interruption. Human trafficking, addiction, criminal behavior and obesity all symptoms of childhood trauma. #education #childhood #neurology #gap #liveproduction #interrupts
This post does contain explicit language and disturbing references. The fight for your sexuality is something I know all to well. I link homosexuality to two things a parent being absent from a child’s life and childhood sexual abuse. When I have done research and case studies I came across the gender of the parent missing is commonly the gender the child does not engage with intment relationships. I was sexually abuse as a child I was penteated and forced to give oral sex for over a years time. I will say this I remember being at the store as kid as asking myself do I like boys or girls, crazy to think about now. Sexually I was confused I didn’t understand the bodies natural reaction from stimulation. I am sure if I didn’t grow up even as a young kid dreaming of being a dad, husband or a great athlete I would of had a great chance to be homosexual. I fought for my dreams and my sexuality through some of the tuffest adversity. My early 20’s arrived and the mask was well formed with muscles and tattoos. I found my self trying to buy love through what I had and this even meant selling my body to obtain money. With money I thought the woman of my dreams would come but not realizing those were major thinking errors. I look back with no shame, I stand still with pride knowing I will fight for my Dreams until they become my today.