Depression and food cravings appear during times of idle time, in these moments I create to help silence the pain. Just as I write this I will tell you it helps to get the trash out of the system, trash being negative thoughts,depression and feelings of worthlessness. The best fix comes from the movement of the human body, the dopamine releases and the mind feels an unbelievable dose of optimism that allows an escape to ones imagination.
Life has thrown so much at me lately most of it has came off poor decisions I have personally made. After hearing Ben’s message this morning it had me very humbled and proud to have purpose even so much it makes me wanna cry and say is this real God. I received a message from a young man last night and he shared he enjoyed my videos and the last one I posted really touched him, that made my heart smile. I am staring to realize this life is not about my dreams but more about his plan. I want so much but stuff, but I believe god uses me to give so much at least all of me. My dreams are irrelevant to his plan for my purpose to severe in his world. I hope I can help you reach levels I never have been able to.
So often the children of today are being misdiagnosed with ADHD for the fact they show signs of hyperactivity and not having the ability to concentrate for long durations. What you don’t know is hyperactivity and racing thoughts are signs of severe childhood trauma for example sexual abuse, neglect and severe emotional abuse. Please stop diagnosing at the the symptom and start at the incident that is causing the behavior.
Keep writing, keep documenting, keep thinking, keep recording, keep dreaming and eventually an opportunity will arise. I find my self dreaming of something greater then what I am doing now whatever it may be something that allows more opportunities to connect. I don’t know what that looks like or how it’s gonna happen so I just keep dreaming. Praying, passion allows the fire to be seen. I know a great opportunity is coming that’s why giving up is never an option, I tell myself daily just keep imagining. Everyday I run I leave and go to my dreams, processing how they can become the present.
I always remember my dad saying “there are good people black and white and their is also bad people both black and white. Today that still holds some truth , but look at like this are their really bad people or just bad experiences that happen to people. When you come onto this earth you have no past nor very present so I would assume we would say a newborn is good. So what makes us judge an adult by being good or bad race, social economic class, home? I would hope no would be the answer. People are not nor good they become in most cases what they experienced good or bad. Everyone wants to be happy, live a life prosperity but not everyone does.
This evening I was working out at LBs, from a far I seen a man working his ass off to complete every station. I watched him the ladder half of the workout his grit made my heart smile. I couldn’t not resist from saying something my heart said let this man know, as he passed I patted him on his back and said “good work”. What I really wanted to do is give the guy a hug. I love to see people work and fight for what they want that’s a real measure of a mans character.