Isolation is not the answer to happiness but in same breath I don’t know if having a lot of contacts is either. Days like this make me believe less is more, less people you talk to reduces the risk of stress. Don’t get me wrong I do believe having support is needed.
I want to really change Northwest Ohio revitalize Toledo Ohio. We see homelessness at all time record highs, Missions,street walkers, panhandlers everywhere right here in Northwest We are at the center of a broken people epidemic! For change we have to do something different and it has to start now. We see people in and out of jail from the street to a court room nothing and changes. We must create partial hospitalization program’s to help give people an opportunity to be under 24 hour care and be in a healthy atmosphere. We’re talking about building a better jail seems a little reactive I want to stop jail from being the destination. The way this must be done is requiring partial hospitalization centers that provide adequate treatment for the homeless and people in and out of our court system, I think we can agree everyone qualifies because everyone is acting mentally very unhealthy. Better jails are not the answer fancier missions are not the answer BETTER HOMES are the answer. We might not be able to directly create a better home but we can renew humanities life through creating a blueprint from someone who has had a healthy home and seen what healthy looks like. I don’t want people to exist I want them to thrive. Everyone was once a fetus and born a baby, let’s remember this everyone is someone’s baby and everyone deserves to be happy.
Healthy woman don’t ask men out I came to that conclusion. I do know this being rejected your whole life from pretty girls does does affected your confidence. I am at a point of my life where rejection is like a kick in the nuts, nobody wants that pain so why even try. Rejection has me asking what the hell is wrong with me.
I find my self so deeply rooted in understanding human behavior. Not everything I do is great their are major improvements needed to be made. Sometimes I feel I see things others don’t and just wanna scream in frustration, for example how childhood trauma is the root of drug addiction. I am starting to think my life is made for art and not a portrait.
Started running 2 years ago and struggled to run a mile, but I stuck with it wondering what the reward was out of running. Truth is running makes depression subside and tells anxiety to come back tomorrow. If you know my past with lifting weights, steroids and drugs you would know a gym triggers depression for me. My gym is on the pavement with my New balance 860’s! I am runner and everything I do is to break the cycle, I am creating a blueprint of success.
Moving on is something I always resisted, I would hang on to everything from relationships, memories and possessions. Recently I have been anlazing where the behavior comes from a direct link has not been found, I do believe it comes from abundant of some sort. My dad spent most of his 30’s single and alone I am following the blueprint as of now. I do feel myself unattached from past, not forgetting but believing the purpose is forming. Sometimes I get tired from the the distortion of old thinking. Did I make a mistake the answer has not came out yet know my decision is based off personal happiness.
So much has been on my mind even more then the usual. This week this season has taught me to appreciate being, having life is a blessing in itself. Sometimes life can be very challenging and makes you question why things are not different, my best advice is be still and feel. Feeling emotions crying, laughing, loving all are the greatest ways to experience what life really is and they all are free. I realize my life is mine and I need to be grateful for this life. I miss my dad more then ever part me wants to go to hospice and sit in the room he was in. Wednesday will be year since you went to hospice, I remember us getting there and getting you settle at 7pm . You said “ j I don’t wanna go anywhere.” Writing this puts tears in my eyes. I love you daddy!!