i been thinking about this phrase and yes I have said it to, maybe indicates something. You only live once, have you ever said that to rationalize bad or impulsive descion making. What I am realizing that's only what a child says when they don't wanna work towards a goal and just wanna receive the prize. Success and happiness both inside jobs, external teams never lead to internal bliss.
see this guy is my father, yes he's my dad and I am his son. Dad I tell you thank you for making me , see I love everything about me the big heart even the big head. My heart comes from you kind and compassionate. You taught me how to love the elderly and love the babies, see your appreciation of people has made my soul shine. People say nice things about me but there really talking about you and mom cause I learned it from you guys. My biggest dream is to be a dad have a little JJ. See I want to teach little JJ about all the important things in life the little things such as treating people with respecting, holding doors for the elderly and treating everyone as they were your child. Son I'm telling you god will give you what you need and desire just listen to him. Think twice be acting, yes I am saying listen to heart. Understand the greatest feeling is loving and doing for others as you would want for yourself. Son there's nothing more important then this so
soak this in, there is never the perfect moment or time so don't wait to to live life. Come as you are and enjoy what you deserve. Dad loves you.
Been off work all week and that makes me feel like I am not contributing to our work team. Anxiety has been through the roof with worries and stress having a normal routine out of sorts has lead to some depression. All I have been trying to do is be there for my pap and not allow anything to interfere with the time he deserves. Had to get it out
year ago is when I decided I was gonna become a runner not knowing how it would affect my life. Running has become the cure for depression and stress it has became my number one therapeutic outlet. This running stuff has been a game changer insecurities and demons disappear when those earbuds are in. I remember all those late night runs in the freezing cold, to being the first one at wildwood at 7am waiting for the park ranger to open the gate In January. The shoes have changed, the music has changed but happiness is still the goal.
You never plan life you live it!!no matter what it brings you, things never seem to go the way we picture but still an image is painted. 31 and wanting perfect well that's just not real, life is not bringing the perfect situation, relationship and finances. You simply live making the most out of what you got. Perfect ain't real so I'm gonna stop waiting and start living.
This Sunday I will run the glass city marathon and all will think of you every second of the way. I just wanna say thanks for life! My life has never been perfect but I am greatful for the opportunity to breath. See it's crazy I am 31 and here praying for you, drinking this coffee on a Tuesday night as they get your room set up. All the times you had to make ends meet for me to have all you provided and I just wanna cry matter fact I am thank you pap. This journey has been crazy but worth cause I know your proud of me and I am proud of you for being my dad. I want my dreams to come true just so you can say my son did it. Love you dad!
usually I am always dreaming but lately I have been to tired. Finally I sit hit here stuck in in the moment, I will say it's long over due. I use to live in my imagination of what life should look instead living the one god gave me. Dreams are great things to have but I just realized you have to take care of the right now before and dream can come true. I am learning if i want my dreams to be my life I have to be intentional with everything I do. Fairy tale love would be what I use to dream of, you know that Thompson square you gonna kiss me or what kinda love. So numb to those thoughts, I just wanna live and enjoy life. With all that's on my mind and plate with my dads health It makes me question what's really important. There is nothing more important then family. Ahh I can't even get creative or deep I am struggling to use form platform to express myself.
Don't let the picture fool you I was not happy. See I grew up thinking stuff cars, money etc was the root of all happiness. I was dead wrong to say least. White kid grew up in north Toledo, I thought fancy car and shiny wheels was the root to happiness. All I was seeking to be loved and was willing to pay anything for it. I am so glad I got experience this costly lesson but now I know happiness is a inside job. I stoped harboring my insecurities and am no longer held captive.
Making money has never been the issue, what I do with it seems to be a different story. Most people have lifestyle changes with their fitness journey, my lifestyle journey will be financial. Always spending money on good food yes eating out with no regards to how much money I had. Driving any
and everywhere I wanted not thinking gas is not free. I sit here and say I work to hard to not have more experiences. The thought of this is scares me because I truely don't know if I will be successful and I know it's gonna challenge me with tuff times. I want more out of my life then eating out and buying stupid shit. In my life I always thought money was the route to happiness and that was lie, nothing you can purchase can give you real internal happiness for any length of time. My income has never been the problem, I have been the problem. Time to do something about it once and for all.